Sunday, October 23, 2005

Fate?

I was chatting with a friend today who said something that made me think:

Everything happens for a reason.

Is that true? Or do things just happen at random, completely irrationally? It seems to me that if everything happens for a reason, then there would have to be some kind of overall plan for everyone. Then that would imply that there is someone making that plan, and this is in contradiction with my belief that there is nobody to do that. So the conclusion for now is that not everything happens for a reason.

But that also brings up the definition of a reason. Reasons given for something to occur can be logical (or illogical) and so these would be the cause of the event. So can a reason relate to anything occuring after a certain event? I would say no. Things do not occur because of something that will happen in the future. For the proper meaning to be expressed by the expression above, then it should be:

'Everything happens for a result'.

This says that some event which had real reasons to occur has results that are as yet unknown and may or may not be desirable. So then everything does happen for a reason, only not in the sense that the expression indicates. It seems to imply that everything happens for some predetermined outcome in life, that being the reason, which makes no sense at all. From this point of view then the expression doesn't say anything about a divine being or anything, since obviously everything does happen for some reason that is real NOW or before the event. My previous paragraph about the expression contradicting my belief that there is no divine being is false. The expression says nothing of the sort.

That's what I think about that. Why did I think about that? Well I was wondering what could possibly be the 'reason' for recent events in my life, besides the obvious ones that were given by those involved. The idea that one of these reasons could be something later in life directly related to this event seemed highly improbable, and I actually kind of hurt my head trying to think of what the hell that could be!! I don't think there is any way to predict what could possibly be the outcome of these events, whether anything in my life later is directly related to them (I think it is safe to say that SOMETHING in my life will be related to it), and whether or not related events are good, bad, or neither. There is no point in trying to imagine what will happen because of this event because there are just too many variables and too many things that CAN happen. I just have to live my life in the present, controlling things that I can based on decisions that I make, and try not to worry about things beyond that. I have to stop thinking of what could have been, or how I would like things to be, and focus on what I can make happen. I can still think of what has happened and try to make myself a better person based on that, but there is no point in moping because things didn't turn out the way I wanted.

Having said this, it is still going to take some time for me to get over things, which you know about if you've read nearly any other post in my blog. I told the lava girl that I couldn't commit to anything...I feel really bad about having even met her. She seemed pretty disappointed about it (although it's hard to judge that over MSN). It's not fair for me to see anyone right now because I am still thinking about someone else, and until then I am going to abstain from any attempts at picking up or meeting anyone. This is the most logical course of action.

Some more mundane things: Went to a friend's b-day bash at Gypsy Co-op, pretty nice place, good times. Saturday I went climbing and swing dancing at night, also good times. Finally, we had family friends over for the night and for brunch which was pretty nice, and then I went for a run at the gym...no more biking, it's rainy and cold. And also studied PIC micro controllers for a bit...ugha....although it's pretty interesting.

I found a neat series of games on my exes blog, it's SOO much fun! There are two that I've played, Tontie, and Grow Cube. Tontie is like whack-a-mole that you see at local fairs, and Grow Cube is a completely original game that it's hard to compare with anything else. Both fun and horribly addictive. Go here, and prepare to waste a LOT of time!
http://www.eyezmaze.com/tontie/v1/index.html

Ciao for now.
bitbs

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