Never Ending Story

Oi...I don't know if this is normal...I suppose it is. I've thought about my little lava date I went on last Monday a bit more, and realized I don't think it's a good idea for me to date anyone yet. It wouldn't be fair to the other person. The date made me realize that if I start seeing someone else, I will only be thinking of my ex more... The point is, last date made me realize that if I see anyone now, it will be hard because I still will be thinking how much better it was before. And it really was. It was sooo easy. Soo relaxed. So natural.

It is taking me way too long to get over this. Maybe I never will, and I will just have to get used to thinking of her on every date I go on, until maybe some day I can go to where she is and start again. When I talk about the situation and how it turned out with friends, I still get choked up. Unbelievable, that I still feel like this.