Anger

Well....CC's break period went by with no call or contact for me. That one mass mail was all I heard. Now instead of confused and puzzled, I am just plain pissed off. I feel like I've done everything I can for this relationship to work, and yet on her side there seems to be very little effort at all. I don't need this kind of relationship. There has to be some work on both sides, and I've tried my hardest to tell her that, and done what I can to make it as easy as possible for her, even to the point of mentioning that I would like maybe a personal email from time to time when she sends her mass mails....I think as her boyfriend I deserve at least that. When she calls instead that's fine. But often I don't even get that, or she calls a couple of days after sending the mass mail. And when I don't hear anything for her entire break period...well, let's just say that if she is going to be like this whenever we have to go long distance, I don't want to and can't live like this.

I am going to wait until we talk on the phone to voice my concerns...and maybe make her realize that she is screwing up our relationship, if she is not already aware of that. That will probably not be before Friday, which sucks. In the mean time it is hard to think about anything else.